Renewed Spirit within me

Psalm 51:10 (King James Version) ¹⁰Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me.

Psalm 51:10 (Amplified Bible)¹⁰Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right, persevering, and steadfast spirit within me.


Psalm 51:10 (Contemporary English Version)¹⁰Create pure thoughts in me and make me faithful again.

So it's been a little while since I've shared what was on my mind, what I've been learning about, what got me excited in my quiet time...and take a wild guess as to why?  ...you have nothing to share when you're not seeking and learning.  The week following Thanksgiving started the 'I'm exhausted' kick that I've been on.  Not staying up after Emma's 4:45am feeding, barely getting myself up at 7/7:30 when Emma wakes up only to throw some breakfast and lunch together for Tyler and feed Emma.  I was barely rolling through the days, not making time to spend with God.  Praying a little, but that was about it.  My attitude got super grumpie and grumbly.  I've been a whiner.  And I'm wondering why I can't 'hear' God's answers to my prayer requests.  Hmmm.

Yesterday I downloaded the 2 video sessions I've missed from not attending Bible study for the past month.  Yesterday's session made me cry.  hit the spot.  Made me admit to a few things that have been coming to mind from my past.  Things I've never shared with anyone, let alone admit to God and ask for forgiveness.  Yesterday was a slight breakthrough in that sense.  

Last night we had the Prices over for dinner and part of our dinner conversation just really was God speaking to me through them.  They brought up some interesting points of view on some things we're praying about right now, which made me see things a bit differently - I know I'm being vague.  I may share eventually.  I'm still processing.  And of course want to share with my husband before share with everyone else.  

Then this morning.  I had another morning of 8 hours of sleep.  Tyler woke up on his own (again; usually I'm his alarm clock) and I wanted to sleep for the remainder of the morning without interruption.  But I didn't.  I chose a bit of a different attitude this morning.  Once Tyler was off to work and Emma was down for her AM nap, I started the second video.  And oh my...

let me just tell you all the things my mind's currently spinning off of: 

• Philippians 4:5, “Let your gentleness be evident to all.”...this is what started it all this morning.  It was a part of this post.
• I've studied quite a bit on pruning this year.  With emphasis on cutting off the dead and ugly branches.  Have you thought of pruning on the GOOD in your life?  so you can be even MORE fruitful?  The areas where you are being effective and really doing well in needing to grow and reach more people, so there's a snip here and there?!...Isn't that what pruning actually is?
• what about convictions coming from ungodly people :)  That was an 'ouch' when Beth Moore said, "how can I feel convicted, they're not godly".... I've never thought about convictions and little reminders coming from people that couldn't even know that's what they're delivering...
• Have you ever felt that you heard God's voice so clearly on something, then it fades so you figure that may not be something for you anymore so you begin to pray about it as well as quit doing this thing?  Why don't we continue to follow this previously clear word until you're given another one?!  Why do we feel we can just quit without hearing just as clear of a 'stop' as we did 'start'?
• patience...we live in such an instant gratification culture right now.  Galatians 6:9 (The Message) ^9-10So let's not allow ourselves to get fatigued doing good. At the right time we will harvest a good crop if we don't give up, or quit. Right now, therefore, every time we get the chance, let us work for the benefit of all, starting with the people closest to us in the community of faith.
  we can't just wait for the time of harvest; wait for the blossom's perfect time to bloom.  We start off praying hard and long for something...then we forget and grow weary...then we remember again and pray a little more...we forget that things take time, no matter what it is.  seeds need to be planted, watered, perhaps a little pruning until it grows to it's full size and is ready to serve its purpose

We each have a purpose to serve in the body.  We must reach out for our daily mana so that we can continue to be filled day after day, so that we will be able to accomplish that purpose...no matter when it is to come to light.  And we are to be fruitful all the days of our lives. 

I just felt the breakthrough during my time this morning and I finally feel right with God again.  Thank you for the prayers whether or not you knew what was going on with me.  I always appreciate them.  

After my wonderful morning, I definitely felt a renewed spirit within me.  So, here I am again rambling!  I pray to be able to continue sharing my thoughts with you...because that means I'm having them :)